Now an open agnostic

Q: I'm now not an atheist but don't have beliefs now, during in my atheist era I mocked God and other religious things.

I'm realizing, and I want to change and be forgiven by God, is there a way? I feel weak about it and I'm influenced of my "friends".

A: I am glad you are open, and willing to investigate more, even if your friends have influenced you before. It is goid to go examine a matter yourself and find out the truth. 

This will help you on your journey:
1. NeedGod.com it explains the gospel and how to be saved (today).

2. Essentials to know about Christianity. (Review it 3x and look at all the verses listed so you get it "tucked into your mind" well).

3. And this FAQ page  can help answer other questions as you grow in the faith. We dont instantly have all knowledge of Scripture, it is a lifetime of learning and growing, but today with resources online we are able to understand a few things quicker than all previous generations (for 6,000 yrs). There's solid info in there to help you solidify your faith in God,Jesus, the Bible and Christianity, so even though it is a help for atheists, it has a lot of helpful info to clear away doubts and hold to the truth. 

4. This will also be a blessing as "next steps for new believers", and worth bookmarking, for daily usage. Resources

God bless.